Bloggity-bloggity-blog.

So in a moment of sheer madness, I told a URL friend I was considering Tweeting something/did they think I should, and after a strong answer to the affirmative, I Tweeted the link to this blog. I then went out to a play, and the second I got back in I deleted the Tweets. I don't know what I was thinking. Well I do; I was thinking "Gee, it'd be useful if I could talk this over with someone". However what possessed me to think that I could find such an audience on the internet, I'll never know. I'll cut myself a little slack. It is hard to judge this internet lark. But it's much wiser to play on the safe side. I.e., not trust anyone ;) this is always my motto, heh heh. But anyway, I'm sincerely hoping no-one saw it/bothered to click the link. I'll never have any way of knowing, but I'm relying on the fact they didn't.

Which begs the question, 'So why am I writing here?' Heh heh. Good question. Not entirely sure. I think the point I considered in my last post, about finding a certain amount of clarity in arranging my thoughts on a page, still stands. Maybe that's why people like blogging. I've never really 'got' it. Cuz it's that bit more than a diary, and I've never really understood how a blog works. Still not sure I do. But there's something about a diary that's so limiting - you feel obliged to write regularly if not every day, and about your day. When I re-read mine, it was mostly a list of lessons and what went on. With a blog, there's freedom. You can write about a topic or an issue, in a way that would seem superfluous in a diary. And it doesn't matter if anyone reads it (I'm hoping to god no-one reads this), but something about leaving it open to the public validates it. Even if the public don't read it.

Anyway, I still don't think I'll use this much as it still seems a bit preachy and self-indulgent. And not in the good way ;) but I might leave it open for whenever I do want to just write about something. There is an outlet. In the way that, despite my issues with it, I really think Tumblr has a place - so does blogging.

In regards to the language exchange issue, I think I've sorted it out. I've narrowed it down to three people living close to me - two in Brighton, and one in Bournemouth. I was (understandably) hesitant at the thought of meeting one of these total strangers on my own - just not very sensible - so have devised a plan to suggest to them that all four of us meet up in Brighton, for coffee or a meal or something, just to get to talk about this whole exchange idea and what we hope to get out of it. That way I'm in a public place (and I know Brighton well), and I'm not on my own. And I'd only have to do the awkward meeting part once, as opposed to three times xD a definite plus point!

So. There we have it. I felt like I had unfinished business with this ridiculous little experiment they call a blog, but can now let it to lie, and return every now and then whenever I feel, without the pressure of a readership. Much better! So. Until the next time.